Capt. Calvin

Time

2005-10-19T09:06:00.000-05:00

Hello peoples, I am sorry it has been a while sense my last post. ok a long time sense then, but anywho I am here now. School has been eating my life, so much studying my brain hurts. umm not to much to report... ummm.... ok well I am off to study more baa. baa I say to school.

why?

2005-08-31T16:02:00.000-05:00

why does life suck so often. why me. such anger and sadness at the same time. sigh.

Fun quiz

2005-08-21T17:24:00.000-05:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Mixed emotions

2005-08-17T12:40:00.000-05:00

Well I am kinda of sad cause my friends are leaving for college tomorrow, but the good news is that I am having a party on Fri. YAY party ^_^ Also some good news is that I am leaving for college next thurs. YAY then hope fully I will meet some one "special" and who knows -rolls eyes deviously- :) that is if I have time between studying, water ski team, other clubs, and Theatre. omg so much to do, but anyway at least I will be able to stay in touch with my friends here and those away in Oklahoma.

IT IS GONE

2005-08-02T22:09:00.000-05:00

I am so mad robotica has left.

They are gone

2005-06-21T12:00:00.000-05:00

all the non natrial parts in my leg are gone. yay and in another week I can start swimming. yay. oh I bought the phantom, and the sound track, and the sound track from les Miserables. yay. I miss navi. :( well I send her many big hugs. umm I cant think of anything else.

Yuck

2005-05-12T18:03:00.000-05:00

So ya, I got sic last night and was sick all night and did not go to school today. Fortunately, I am feeling better now.

Update

2005-03-05T11:56:00.000-06:00

Well I am just updating my blog to say that I am still alive. And that I am going to England over spring break.

I am a Deviant

2005-02-13T13:12:00.000-06:00

I am now posting pictures on my deviant page. Go and look at them. Please.

Its official

2005-02-06T21:12:00.000-06:00

Well I have made my decision about college, I am going to Stephen F. Austin university. Woot, some place that wants me for the scores that I made. And I will know at least 2 people there, out of 11,000+. lol. Ok I am going to go and eat some ice cream, and listen to my radio.

Weekend

2005-01-28T21:20:00.000-06:00

So this weekend I am going to SFA to visit. I will more than likely go there, or Sam Houston. Any way today I had some friends over and discussed life. And I learnt many things and made a life changing decision.

HAPPY DANCE!!!!

2005-01-22T13:39:00.000-06:00

AAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!! I just got two acceptance letters!!! Woot. Much woot. I am accepted to Sam Houston State and A&M commerce. aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh -runs around the house- :) :) :) :) :) :)

Weekend

2005-01-09T19:32:00.000-06:00

This weekend was a mixed weekend for me. Lessa's B-day party was a lot of fun, till I got to feeling bad. "Lessa, I am sorry if I kind of bummed out your party." And as I was starting to leave thoughts of my deep secret came to me for some reason and made me start to cry. I think it was because I fear that my friends won't like me anymore if they find out what I did. This "event" is really starting to weigh me down. And is making me question my self. "No I am not having suicidal thoughts." I am questioning who I like, and I am really confused, I don't know what is right. I don't know what to do. -sigh- I just hope that one day soon I will find some one to love.

On a happier note, I got DWI2 (dance with intensity) from Navi and have been playing it all the time. So now any time I hear music and close my eyes, I see those little arrows scroll bye. lol
-sigh- I am still sad and confused about what I should do about my secret.

New Year

2004-12-30T21:59:00.000-06:00

Woot yay for the new year. A whole new year for fun friends and love. (maybe) anyway it is going to be 2005 the year I graduate from High school FINALLY. Not much else is going on right now, still trying to get into some college.

Christmas eve

2004-12-24T10:27:00.000-06:00

Marry Christmas one and all.
Some great quotes from Foamy
"How can anyone be offended at Santa he is a fat guy that gives out free stuff. That's why I like Santa because he is fat, works one day a year, is actually happy and eats all the cookies he wants."

"Believe in the power of Santa, or get nothing."

"Keep making Santa mad, it means more gifts for me"

-Marry Christmas and a happy new year.
oh and here is an interesting thought to Santa. http://www.flashplayer.com/animation/santasarmy.html

Four more days!

2004-12-21T21:54:00.000-06:00

Wow there are only four more days till Christmas. WOOT Free stuff.

WE WON

2004-12-18T15:36:00.000-06:00

WE WON despite the fact that I really don't care about foot ball. I am going to celebrate them today, we just won state. WOOT. The final score was 23 to 26 we won with a 41 yard field goal, with 6 seconds left on the clock. WOOT.

End of school

2004-12-13T20:44:00.000-06:00

Woot I only have one more full day of school. Then no school on Wed. One period on Thursday and one on Friday. No more school for three weeks.

Confusion

2004-12-08T22:19:00.000-06:00

I am going through a hard time right now. There is lots of confusion in my life. Some of these things I can talk about here, on the internet. Others only three people know about, and that is the way it is going to stay. There are many issues that are running through my mind at this time in my life such as, having lost a relationship with my gf, the lack of trust amongst some of my friends; which is really bothering me. I would do ANYTHING for them, even if it meant getting injured, it wouldn't bother me because I would be helping them. I can only hope that they feel the same way about me.

Another thing that is bothering to me is that despite the work I do for the people I care about, they just say thanks to be polite. It seems as though they really don't care for instance. Today my Theatre teacher's tire was flat so she had a student change it for her, (she wouldn't let me do it because of my broken leg, which is getting better) the problem was that the spare tire was really low on air like un-drivable; so out of the goodness of my heart I got the air pump out of my car and filled it up to an appropriate level. Of course she said thank you but it was if she really didn't care, like she was going to drive on it any way. But I get the same type of feeling from my friends after I have help them with their (shall we say emotional problems) even if it is just sitting there and listing to them, it is a thanks but the next day in school I don't see any change in their attitude towards me.

Well it is getting late and I think that I am done ranting for now.

TGIF

2004-12-03T07:36:00.000-06:00

It is Friday, and there are only two more weeks of school including exam week. WOOT and as of now, I only have to take two exams. More WOOT. And today we have a pep-rally which means I only have to deal with Johnston for 20 min. hahahahah. Also today is an easy day for me, only part of economics, our school broadcasting class, office aid, and an off block. Then I have theatre class which is always fun.

IT IS GONE!!!!!

2004-11-29T21:12:00.000-06:00

Oh happy day my cast is gone, gone gone. YAY and there are only 3 more weeks of school, this sysmester. yay

The party

2004-11-21T22:20:00.000-06:00

The party was uber fun, even though only lessa and Whitney came. But afterwards there was a Cirque du Soleil festival, the Cirque was celebrating their 25 anniversary. yay, uber strong and sexy people.

NO SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!

2004-11-18T11:53:00.000-06:00

Today is thursday and school is all most over for me, then there will be only one day left. Then a monumentes event, NO SCHOOL for a whole week. YAY!!! Also this Sunday I have a bunch of friends coming over to celebrate that there is no school. We are going to have so much fun playing viedo games DDR :), bumper pool, and CRAINUM woot. There shall be greatness and much fun happing.

In other great news we have started building out next theatrical set for "Josph and the Amzing Technacolor Dream Coat" it is a mouthfull but it design is just incredibel. I am hoping to be on the running crew for the play.

Winter

2004-11-13T17:58:00.000-06:00

I hate winter. It is cold and dark. It is 6:00 p.m. (central time) and it is pitch black out-side. There are only a few good things that come out of winter time:wrapping up in a blanket with a hot cup of chocolate, sitting next to someone you care about for warmth, and star gazing at an earlier time. That is if it is not cloudy.

FRIDAY

2004-11-12T11:14:00.000-06:00

I am so ready for this weekend. The only problem is that I have a boat load of English to do, economics, and Spanish. But I think I am going to enjoy this weekend. Then there is only one more week till Thanksgiving break. WOOT.

Such is life.

2004-11-07T21:21:00.000-06:00

... -bangs head on desk- BANG* it is my own fault for what has happened in my relationship. This is the price I must pay for not talking to her all summer long. She moves on, I lament and will eventually move on, such is life.

Life

A never ending cycle of moving on,

never stopping,

never waiting,

just movement,

there will be new people,

new relationships,

new life.

Interpret this poem how ever you want, I have a suspicion that this can be pretty much any where in a person's life.

Lost love recapped

2004-11-05T19:31:00.000-06:00

This is to recap what I had said in my last post, about my gf. Ever sense she moved away our relationship has been really hard. I found that long-distance relationships are very hard. However, this one person that I have been going out with sense about 7th grade I still deeply love her. Despite the fact that we haven't talked in while I can't bare the thought of leaving her. What really bothers me is that I almost was going to call her to brake up with her. But of course now that I have spent time to think about it I cant believe what I almost did, and never will make that type of call. I still have deep love and admiration for her. If she is reading this I will try my best to please you, and am trying to contact you. I am sorry for the troubles I have caused and for any emotional damage I might have caused. I will do what ever I can to make up for everything. Please I beg of you to still love me in return, accept my mistakes and forgive me. I still love you with all my heart.

Disbelief

2004-11-04T11:06:00.000-06:00

I can't believe what my friend is drawing. It is so bad, the art is good but the subject of the art... I just don't know what to say. I mean the drawing technique is just uber cool but still, it is what she is drawing. -frustrated sigh- but make up your own mind. For more examples of what I am talking about check out her gallery, "Chocolate Pocky" and "Strawberry Pocky". She is a cool artist, its just some of her artwork has questionable material.

Lost love

2004-11-03T22:35:00.000-06:00

I am so confused. My gf says she loves me but I am not sure. Some of my friends say I should talk to her, and tell her how I feel. But if I do I am afraid she would have loved me but because of my lack of trust she would leave me.

the party

2004-11-01T18:57:00.000-06:00

the party on sunday, hallween, was a blast we went out getting candy and even I "the gimp" went walking with everyone else. but later it started to rain and rain and rain. "we had a flash flood" in a gir voice. and my friends went out and played in the rain, and there was so much they could kinda swim on the sides of the road.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN

2004-10-29T11:46:00.000-05:00

Woot. This is so cool, this is my last Halloween with all of my friends. Yay I am graduating. But back to the fun. We are having a party and going to go trick or treating, ha ha seniors out trick or treating. It will be so cool.

$_$ Money Money Money $_$

2004-10-20T20:21:00.000-05:00

Yay for field trips. Today my economics class went to the Ft. Worth Federal Bureau of Engraving and Printing. For those of you normal people that don't know what that is, it is one of two places that the United States currency is printed. And omg, there was so much money there. $$$$$. On each sheet three are 16 notes of any set denomination. They are stacked in piles of 1,000 sheets to dry. From there they are put on another machine that cuts them in to the individual notes that we are used to seeing. They are bound into "packages" of $1,000; these packages are bundled with 8 other packages to form a "Brick". These bricks are placed onto a palete with a total of I think they said 34 other bricks. Ok let's do the math:
1,000 X 8 X 34 = 272,000 thats $272,000 per palete. This place makes over 6 pallets a day. If you do the math on that that figures out to around $1,632,000 every day. Ok if you don't find that just amazing well your just different, not necessarily a bad thing, but different. And those numbers are what I can remember.

If you see any errors with my math please make a comment.

The Cast

2004-10-14T16:05:00.000-05:00

This Monday I will be getting a real cast, all my art friends are welcome to draw on it. What color should I get?

2004-10-11T15:37:00.000-05:00

Ok so my leg still hurts, but that is why there is medication ^_^ my weekend was fun, some of my friends came over and we played gamecube and other things. But the best thing was that my friends came over. Yay today is a holiday no school. But tomorrow I will try to go to school.

THE PAIN!!!!

2004-10-08T20:57:00.000-05:00

YARG, and much yelling. For my 4 day weekend I managed to break my right leg. Once again I was walking on the stage in the dark and fell into the pit. (5 to 6ft. lowered space in front of the stage for the orchestra during musicals) Except this time I was on stage for a reason, our director had sent me to go get his keys back from a fellow techy. So I was walking along and suddenly there was nothing but air to stand on. And not being all power-full I can't walk on air. Down I went, broke both bones in my lower right leg just above the ankle. The paramedic came and so did the Principal and ast. Principals. I was taken to the HEB hospital where they performed sugary and am now the proud owner of two metal plates and about 8 pins. My leg will be bandaged for about 10 days and then I will get a cast for the next 6 to 8 weeks. The plates will remain with me till some time this summer.

The masks wear.

2004-10-03T22:29:00.000-05:00

Isn't it odd how we portray our selves one way when we are around others. Hiding our true emotions from the light of day. But when we are alone, away from those that could help us most, we take off the mask and are depressed about our true self. Always fearing someone might find our true emotions, so we immediately put the mask back on.

-Just something to think about.

pain of life

2004-09-29T22:38:00.000-05:00

I have so much hw it is'nt even funny. I have a lot of Econ. and Physics to do. Not only that i have a physics test tomarow. YARG!!!

on a sad note, I think I am going to give up on "more then just friend" relationships till college or later. :-( Im not sure what to think of my girl friend --- she, in my opion, is sending mixed fealings. my friends please help me to decide what is best.

yay im better

2004-09-26T21:34:00.000-05:00

ok all is well...for now. tomarrow is monday and that means school. :-(

Lack of Life

2004-09-22T16:41:00.000-05:00

Sometimes I feel as if no one cares about me. 'If I were suddenly to disappear would anyone notice?' Access to a different life is easy for me, but it would mean having to give up on another life. I know my parents would notice my disappearance but, some times it sounds as if they don't love me but after those conversations they quickly say they love me. They are so conflicting. Like they say, "What are you going to do in college' or ' If you had a kid like you how would you feel." Then they say, "I'm sure you'll do fine in college" or other things like that. I'm just not sure what to think.

YAY

2004-09-20T21:36:00.000-05:00

there is a new legendary frog cartoon. yay go and watch it. "The Matrix Still Has You"

YAY

2004-09-18T19:45:00.000-05:00

YAY again, I won first place in time and second place in design. ^_^ yay happy dance.

here is a better Trigun quiz. I am Vash ^_^

Vash the Stampede -Vash is an easy going, fun
loving character with more than one side to his
personality. One side is a protector of life;
Saint-like and pure. Another side shows off his
goofyness that can be rather perverse. But,
another side is shown during his battles. At
these times Vash is agile and aims with
incredible accuracy. He may seem completely
happy and joyful on the surface, but deep
inside he hides a dark past.

Trigun character Quiz

WEEKEND FUN

2004-09-18T10:14:00.000-05:00

WHOOHOO today is Saturday and the cardboard boat races. Unfortunately I wont be able to contend dew to having to work later, but I am still going to go for KDGN our school's TV station. YAY. If you want to attend the races are being held at Scot's Landing at Grapevine lake. It stats at 12:00 if you can make it, it is a lot of fun.

yay for internet quizes

2004-09-15T21:19:00.000-05:00

I am most like Meryl. ^_^ yay for helping people.

I am Meryl Stryfe, disaster investigator for the Bernardelli

Insurance Society. I have been assigned to follow

Vash the Stampede and minimize the damage he causes.

Which Trigun character are you?
Find out!

HW is evil!!

2004-09-12T09:39:00.000-05:00

I hate homework with a passion. The teachers say Read this read that do this. It is so stupid there should be a rule against giving out so much homework. The schools should go back to teams, so that they can coordinated their homework so the students don't have so much on one day. Stupid teachers.

Late-night sadness :(

2004-09-08T21:02:00.000-05:00

I am feeling very blue, I miss my gf. I saw her for the first time in almost a year and only got to spend a few hours with her. I got a funny vibe that she no longer loves me. Of course, if our relationship falls through I will most certainly be depressed. If that happens I pray I will be able to find...

MY OWN

A person that I can share my thoughts and feeling with,

A person to love and to hold,

A person to love me back,

Someone caring and true.

A person,

A one and only.

My only hope is that she still loves me, and if not that I will be able to survive and to find someone that is right for me.

saddened,

Calvin

2004-09-08T19:18:00.000-05:00

aaaaaaaaaaaaaa. there are too many people in the play. there are 15-20 techies when there only needs to be 8 at the most. school is hard, and i hate calculas. enough for now i have studinging to do.

My first blog ^_^

2004-09-06T17:42:00.000-05:00

YAY I have my own blog. I will write more when somthing happens in my life